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Is this cheating?

Did I win?

I like it classical and simple.

No seriously, do I win?

Yo Yo!

Thanks to Shaam's blog I laughed my ass off. He had this funny picture of van diesel. I figured out I also have one that always cracks me up, sharing it here! ^^

Doesnt look like I'm the only one with life problems ey? Look at Marilyns, Relentless and Draecanas blogs to see what I mean.

Wrote a blog about my depression yesterday. Check it out.

Yours,

Kneakten

I feel motherfucking depressed. I have nothing to achieve anymore. Atleast nothing I strive to achieve. I've came to the point where I know I can do everything I want to and I have done everything I really strive to do except one thing. That is becomming a psychologist, but I won't achieve that before I'm 24 atleast.

Sure I haven't taken drivers license so I "can't" drive a car due to the law. I could just step into my fathers car though and just go drive around in the neighbourhood. Nothing to profit from that though.

I basicly live for one thing; that is "Feeling Alive". You can get it from other feelings that is included in "Feeling Alive" one. I will list some of them here. I wrote about some in earlier posts that I have deleted and will bring up another today.

Feeling Alive

• Feeling that you really did complete something that you strived to achieve.

• Feeling down. Crying.

• Laughing.

• Doing something that you feel is a bit scary and new. Doing drugs for example.

• Being with people you love. Really.

I diden't include happy, why? Cause I nearly always feel motherfukken happy. It's to common. Fuck me over or something so I can cry. I am fukken depressed atm but it aint worth crying over.

So I love my brothers, my dad, and my friends (Yeah you heard me, I fukken love you shitheads, now GTFO) and I laugh occasionally, but there is some shit missing. What? I'll tell you what. Feeling the sense of achievement!

Only time I do is in WoW. I can now see why people do the achievements. They really give me that "good" feeling. I know if I would hit 80, I would get this really fukken nice feeling but on the same time I have to maintain a good IRL life, so the shit goes slow. So I see now how some people (called addicts in some cases, though I chose not to) just spends ever fukken waken hour in the game.

To long to read?

I'm fucking depressed cause I have nothing that I really want to achieve.

My point werent eather to have people feeling sorry for me, so don't, I'm just curious if anyone else thinks like I do and if my view on WoW achievements is correct for some of you out there.

Thanks for rea- Fuck It.

Kneakten

No good blogs without pictures. So why not.

I'm in love with this song. I just wanna dance all evening when I hear it. Love the video too!

F- YEAH.

Im starting my wow account with my druid on it asap. News just came in;

Restoration

• Tree of Life: Now receives 240% increased armor. You can now use Nature's Grasp and Thorns while within this form. In addition, the discount on heal-over-time spells from this talent is now active at all times, whether or not the druid is in Tree of Life form. Mana cost reduced to match the cost of Travel Form.

So this basicly means no more FFF(=Fugly-Fucking-Form). We can now heal while looking at our shiny armor. I'm in love with Blizzard atm. This change will come with patch 3.1 btw.

Cheers yo!

Kneakten

I had a very interesting talk with my dad just a couple of moments ago. We talked about the very meaning of life and about how mature or "deep" I were for my age. For me material and items don't really mather. Though items can be a part of my way to get my meaning of life I still have to know what the meaning of life is to get it.

I don't care about dying, the thing that makes me feel depressed is just the feeling of "waiting untill death comes upon me". You know when you have your routine and it just goes on and on and on. Feeling sad though (also known as a bad feeling) is not a bad feeling for me, it takes me out of my routin since it's a very intense feeling. Being generally happy for me isen't very amusing at all anyways.

My point is that I know I have archived the meaning of life everytime I can use the expression/feeling "Jag lever, punkt." (I live, end of sentence). Cause then I know I'm not just waiting for my life to end. I actually don't care if it ends tomorrow as long as I can use this expression. Therefor I do stuff that makes me feel alive and feeling that I just plain live; I don't wait for stuff to happy, I make them happen.

I can actually understand some people who use drugs to relax (DONT YOU DARE SNARE AT ME) cause it's very nice to realise everything will solve itself in the end. Everything.

Jag lever.

Kneakten

(I talk much about deep stuff, I know, I'll bump this post with a funny picture later!)

***THIS IS HOW I FEEL. IF YOU MIND CURSING ETC ETC DONT READ***

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKING SHIT I DELETED ALL MY ENTRYS INCASE OF SOMEONE I KNOW WOULD READ THE BLOG AND AFTERWARDS I FOUND OUT THAT I COULD FUCKING JUST NOT MADE THOSE PUBLIC.

FUUUUUCK FUUUUUUUUUCK,

Kneakten